A few things....

First of all I want to say how sad I am that we've lost two bloggers this week. Lisa from "Of the Infertile Species", decided to delete her blog. I understand her reasons but will miss her postings and comments. The 2nd blogger is Ms. X at "A barren island". She became harassed by a group of people that left cruel and judgmental comments. She feels that it is no longer in her best interest to keep a blog. It is hard for me to understand why someone(s) would leave mean comments... do they have nothing better to do and if they truly don't like what they are hearing then why can't they stop reading. Ms. X was always brutally honest with her feelings and also her short comings. I applaud that trait b/c who would we be if we kept a personal diary "i.e. blog" about our life journey and softened how we felt or thought for popularity sake. That would take away the whole point of having a therapeutic form of journaling.

I am sorry to see both of you go. I hope you stop by and keep in touch. Wishing you both only the best.

Second of all, my J surprised me out of the blue with an IPO*D. It wasn't my birthday or our Anniversary but for no reason at all. Or should I be wondering what he did and why he's trying to make up for it... :-) No, but really it was such a nice surprise. J knows that I go on daily long walks or jogs and I take this crappy $9.99 radio thingy that is like 10 years old. I've dropped it more times than I count and I hate the fact that it's all talk radio early in the morning. Now I have an IPO*D and I can download all the songs my heart desires. It's absolutely tiny and basically weightless. It came with an arm band that you can hook it into so that you can run without it getting in your way (and without dropping). I'm impressed with the sound quality and am currently working on my list of pumped up motivating workout tunes. Any suggestions?

And last but not least, I'm 8DPO and feel like crap. I'm tired, bitchy, bloated and hungry. My appetite increases 10 fold when I'm on progesterone. I'm like a lawnmower eating up all of the food in the house. Someone needs to put a lock on the fridge. I open the door to the fridge just about every 10 mins hunting for something to eat. Did you parents lecture you on the energy cost each time you left the fridge door open? I hear my Dad telling me the high cost of energy as I open and close and open and close the fridge all day long.

Yup I'm hungry but sure as hell not horny. I think this is the longest I've ever gone since J and I have been together. I have zero interest. This is not like me at all. I require lots of attention in that department and have a much higher sex drive than my husband. That isn't saying his level is low... that is just showing how high mine is. Normally I'd love to have J chasing me around and wanting a little "quality play". Now I swat at him like a bug and stop him w/ a dagger like stare. He backs off quick.

A BFP in 6 days would be the best news in the world. Nothing could make me happier. But if it's negative I will be more than ready to take a break for a few months before we start IVF. I want my energy level back and I want to run...not walk b/c I'm in a 2WW. I've deprived myself of so many things b/c I'm in the 2WW and potentially pregnant. Having a few months w/ no appts sounds like heaven. I've been doing back to back ART treatments for 9 months straight. I'm tired and need a rest.